Lately I’m constantly pondering over what’s legal for me to post…lol What I’m allowed to throw out there and of course what I should throw out there for the sake of me, my kids and the others involved in this nightmare im currently enduring.
If I could post just a few of the details about my life situation right now there would be some major jaw dropping (yep, right into your lunch), people falling out of their chairs (possibly breaking a hip), people wanting to make a movie out of it, maybe a book or two, a possible appearance on Dr Phil and of course a whole different view on the “problems” some think they have and the ever present excuses to let your life go to S#!t that seem to go hand in hand with those problems.
No pity party here (did that last week lol), not in need of well wishes or looking for any kind of sympathy. Ive just been thinking that all of this would be a fantastic example to show just what we really are capable of enduring, the strength we can conjure up and the faith we can find while walking (ok, being dragged by our feet accross sharp rocks and hot lava) through hell.
Just remember you are always so much stronger than you think you are, and honestly you are stronger than you’ll ever really WANT to be, because believe me the thoughts of rolling up in a tiny ball in a dark hole sounds so much easier.
And sometimes for me, feeling that tiny bit of much needed strength during crunch time is also a tiny bit annoying because its the assurance that I have to press on and that quiet, peaceful dark hole is no longer an option.
And if you can find a way to put yourself first and somehow even just a tiny bit of your heath first it will give you that tiny molecule of strength you’ll need to move forward if even for 10 more minutes or for the time you have to push it all aside and be a productive, present parent.
Sometimes, with somethings nothing is ever really going to get easier, you will just get stronger, even if its one tiny molecule at a time you will. Trust me on this.
You know what they say…
“If You are going through hell, keep going” -Winston Churchill